am very happy present this collection of pages that tells
of my trip thru life.
living by my self in my
own apartment I call "El Nido" - The Nest, with a
beautiful view overlooking the
Mediterranean Sea in the Costa del Sol, southern
Spain. Life worked out well to have
experienced life to it's fullest while I was physically
able, and now old enough, retired,
owning no one, enjoying each day, and free to discover
what I remembered of my experiences, and learn what ever
I want to fill in the gaps.
I was 72 and I figured it was time to learn how to write so
I chose to write
my autobiography. "View
Nido" is a chronological story from my first memories to
Everything was based on what I remember from my memory of
my experiences aided by pictures, recollections by my
family, and the paper trail of documents.
No, I didn't want to write a
book, best seller or not. I do not want to have to
publish it and go around promoting it; I love my life
here and now. I also do not want to publish the
original chronological story for it is in graphic detail
and I don't want to spend my time in court.
English, writing, spelling and reading. I didn't hear
very well and the school systems didn't do much about it.
I always sat near the back of the class since my last
name began with an "N" and I could barley hear the
teacher. I learned how to day dream well and always
enjoyed my thoughts. I had to do little writing as
I grew up but I learned how to manipulate my mother into
doing most of it for me. My spelling is atrocious. I
still hate it when people criticize others, especially
me, for not spelling correctly, most of them didn't know
anything about science and math and probably couldn't
take something apart and put it back together and
make it work.
My writings can’t even come
close to describing the experiences captured in my
memories. It took my writing down my memories in
chronological order that opened the flood gates of a new
thought that you wrote the introduction first, yet
now after three years of writing, I see that it is not
necessarily true. If I had had the training on how
to write well, then yes it might have been true
because I would have written an outline. I didn't,
so I'm learning how to write from experience; "View from El Nido" became
an adventure. There was no way I could write the
introduction first; that would be like
predetermining what life was about and there is no
way that can happen.
So I started writing
about my motorcycle trip as a travelogue for my
mother. I soon realized that it couldn't stand alone
because I needed to tell about selling the houseboat
to finance the trip; so I wrote about my houseboat
living adventure. Then how, at 40, I moved from
suburbia to my new life on the boat. I couldn't stop
writing so it became a story of my life.
I grew up not having to be perfect at
anything, just enjoy learning and make a
better life than my parents had; however, I didn't see why,
I thought it was a pretty good life. It was not easy to learn
that life was much more than my stereotypic protestant
upbringing for there were no books to tell me about how
to think or even what my options were. I had to find out
for myself. While I wrote this to be
an aid to see if I could clearly find the flow and values of my life, I
still found that many things about life are never
turned out to be such a series of experiences that I'm glad I didn't
have to write as I went along, for it would have been very
distracting. Now I have something I want to write about,
time to learn how to write, and the beautiful feeling of
looking back on my adventures thru this life so far. I am now
privileged to have grown old so that I can take the time
from having to accomplish and put together all
the events that made me, me.
reread my stories I found that almost
every story had a lesson that I learned from,
although sometimes not until later. I enjoyed the
humour of the contradictions of the human experience
in them for I had many laughs as I wrote them.
I felt that there was something missing, something
behind some of my writings that I couldn't see and
seamed important. It was this statement that kept me
unexamined life is not worth living" -
Socrates 470 – 399 BC
At first I thought that this was a little
arrogant but on further research I found
that he was really referring to looking
inward. Sure enough, during the
editing of my story, I found so many ways to
enrich my life that it started me on a
process of understanding how my life fit together.
rearranged the pages of my chronological story in the order of how I
saw the phases in my life played out, it started an adventure I
didn't even think existed. I saw how
some lessons were learned over a period of time and
sometimes in different phases over several years. I
became aware of something in my Magic Years that didn't
ring true and certainly didn't coincide with what I
experienced later in life. I knew somehow that I had to find out why and a way to relate
all my experiences in all my phases to different views
to understand life.
Since it was from my own
written memories that many questions came up, I thought
that possibly my answers lay inside me, not
outside; outside as how it appeared where everyone else was
looking. Maybe I could see by
how my thinking was different and how it changed my
Then I remembered these
sayings as I became interested in on the meaning of art:
“The aim of art is to represent not the outward
appearance of things,
but their inward significance.” Aristotle (384 - 322 BC)
my dad, “How
does this work?”, he replied,
apart, examine each parts function,
put it back
together; then you tell me.”
"Give a question
honor by looking for its answer"
Could I use these ideas to create my portal looking inward?
would I find? Where would it lead me?
Learning how to
write so far, turned out to be
quite an experience; so much harder than I could have
ever guessed and I feel this quest
"View from El Nido
would be no different.
"I am ready!!"
I may never
complete my story since I may not be able to write the last
chapter, and I don’t stop experiencing new things every day.
It is this story
of my adventures in life that I care to
share with you now.